slut.

i never really have the guts to leave you.

seriously, 

i never do.

but you did.

- he says.

let's sing our long goodbye song again.

take me somewhere people cant hear my voice please.

smokes, have heart.

i will sing the song for you.

maybe one last time.

then i really have to go.

i can barely look at you.

as i hear all the laughters.

but every single time i do, 

i know we will make it to anywhere.

lighting up my cigarette.

light it up, 

as if i have a choice.

please do hear my voice.

i understand that you might not even want me to stay.

but please remember,

to think that i might not see your eyes.

makes it so hard not to cry.

i am waiting, 

waiting for our long goodbyes.

lighting up my cigarette,

light it up,

as if i have a choice.

long my hands,

my touch,

my skin.

i kept on your voice that says,

please don't go away.

- he says.

why do i even listen to these songs?

and the melody strikes through my head, 

like someone pushed a blade into my mind.

i don't feel it,

but i listen to it.

naturally i act like i have it.

i got no one,

i guess i am so lonely i even i have my own imaginary friend.

i have been asking myself i.

i opened my eyes,

i see figures.

only the creatures of the night,

will harmonize with love.

i wondered if you know,

i missed you so,

dear someone that i don't even know.

- he says.

this two shall pass, but this friendship will never be.

now my number is being called.

we waited to see how i would look.

i waited 7 years for this.

but you could just hold up to 5 years.

plus with the other 6 years of our relationship.

i wish i could hug you for forgiveness,

for one more time,

i would love to.

if i die tonight, 

who will ever get all my belongings, 

our memories?

i miss you.

i really do.

now i am going to get what we waited for,

but i couldn't enjoy it with you.

rest in peace.

- he says.

you've been there for me, when no one could.

thank you very much,

music.

- he says.